Thursday, June 22, 2017

A Dull Light On My Sunny Side


Oh, Government, you are
a dull light on my sunny side.
You never fail to provide the stink
if I decide I want to skate
somewhere on the fault line.

I rather like roller skating on bullshit.
There is honesty in its odor
The surface muck has enough lie
to support figure eights and
side stepping double speak.

Not to be political but political,
government marble halls
are always fresh with mess.
My standard skate wear is I won’t
believe a thing preconceived
assumptions accessorized
with my follow the money glasses.
I don’t need to waste
a new outlook, because
Truth never gets past
the special interest detector.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

Sunday, June 11, 2017

The Recipe of Me

If you want a recipe for
what makes me tick:

Blend tears with a quarter
angry, sift in full blown attitude,
and a strong shot of feminist.

Peel back a few layers of thick skin
until you reach the center where
love doesn’t make labels, compassion
keeps me centered, and you’ll find
a seeker whose mind isn’t so stony
it can’t be changed.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Less Broom and More Gracious


I will clean the wasp nest
of my thoughts by unplugging
from the electronic stream
of two cent opinionators.

I will be less broom and
more gracious and apply
my fingertips to the spotted glass
that smudges my view of the garden.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

My tarot card reading for the day:

The Empress:

Be ambitious today, in a subtle way, and meet with a lot of cooperation and good will. Your ambition does not have to be grandiose. Concentrate on small projects and sweep away a lot of loose ends and complete things that have been long lingering. Act and speak with authority, and be fully respected. Do as much as you can today, and don't look back. 



Sunday, May 21, 2017

Word Drunk And Image High


Word drunk and image high
brains walk digital slums
where too much is too little.

Petitions drop in e-mails
with “this must” confetti and
shame shock toward wallets.

Nothing new under the sun…
Rome gets too big for its boots
chasing oil through Cheeto tracks.

Dumming down has its own cable channel,
glassy eyes tablet read into cameras,
Literacy Died On A Twitter Feed.

In the apathy we’ve become seeds speak,
“Tomorrow can be brighter than blindness,
It will take flesh and bone working together in real time.”

©Susie Clevenger 2017

Real Toads ~ Weekend Challenge ~ The News


Thursday, May 18, 2017

Four O'Clock

Four o’clock paints its portrait
on my library walls in dancing leaf shadows
muting the turquoise of a flowerpot
feeding on shrinking sunlight.

It is that time of day when the unwinding
stalks my mountain of lists and chases
it closer to the corner of undone.

Incubated in the sound play
of jet engines and classical music
I let sundown into my breathing
and turn my eyes to contemplate
a white crane soaring in a picture framed sky.

Daydreaming with my fingers black keyed
to an alphabet I write the bird’s flight
across a verse seeking wings not destination.

A roman numeral interjects itself into my reverie
as my gray cats stretch themselves toward dinner.
Walking the path of paws I leave late afternoon
to paint all my undone with the ebony touch of evening.

©Susie Clevenger 2017



Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Comforter


I was born into silence.
The noise of its anger
was the lullaby before nightmares.

Insomnia was my comforter.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Pushing Wasabi

Photo: Isadora Gruye

It was a little trippy
selling self care wasabi peas
to a county raised on chicken fried,
but once I pitched everyone could use
a little fire in their biscuits they started
planting the mouth burners on every road
not timeshared by weeds.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Some Bright Morning

Peggy Vierra Link (1923-2004) Wash Day, 2009, Oil


If soap could wash
their sins away,
I would never use it.

This line isn’t free
or the pins that
hold us to it.

I’m waiting for some
bright morning,
but I won’t fly.

I will put on my second hand best,
leave my footprints in their cotton,
and walk straight backed into glory.

It doesn’t matter how hard
you scrub a stain, dirt has memory.
Truth will always return to the blood.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Soulless Dance Of Glitter


We trample Mother Nature’s heart
with oilfield boots and drill
our death sentence into her breast.

Greedy vision turns a blind eye
to poisoned mountains gasping
for breath in a colorless sky.

There is no sorrow for trespasses.
The soulless dance of glitter
denies it conjures an earthquake
or strikes another match to melt ice.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

I chose to revisit Kerry's Flash 55 Plus On August 1, 2015

Real Toads ~ Play It Again Toads

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Crowing


There are no stones
honeycombed into
an abusive tongue
strong enough
to clip my wings.

I am not made
from a caustic image
of another’s definition
or a mirror’s distorted reflection.

The dark wings assigned me
allow me to fly where
malignant assumptions
carry no weight.

©Susie Clevenger 2017



Sunday, April 30, 2017

Jasmine Moment


Jasmine claimed the garden wall
in tiny spirals clutching brick and mortar.
The scent of the cloud of pearl white clusters
was heady, intoxicating, commanding.

On a street corner vibrating “don’t linger”
a single Jasmine blossom caught my eye.
From a spring storm of a thousand perfume vials
I was enraptured by the arrogance of one
 tiny flower's demand I pause and inhale its aroma.

In a sanctuary of seconds it was my Shaman
teaching me a moment of stillness has more value
than the foot chase to attain replaceable.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Through Pen and Paper


As a child, a teen
I swam in tears of trauma
until my spirit rebelled
at the drowning line.

Chasing last place
in a swamp filled
with tossed stones
Poe taught me to breathe
with pen and paper.

Through a pinhole in a nightmare
words bled into light and
I began to feel fledgling freedom.

In April’s month of words I hear
the child, the adolescent sing of roots
and crows and know even if the ink is bleak
it lights another candle to dispel my darkness.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017




Friday, April 28, 2017

The Nightman


I was belly button high to hell
when the Nightman began
to collect blue eyes and white skin.

The monster didn’t have
a season for hunting.
If you came chill skinned
close enough to his paws
he dragged you into his den.

He baited his hook with blame,
hooked it into your dreams,
and stained your fear with his name.

When I became too tall, too loud,
too strong, I became invisible.
Nightmare didn’t like his prey
to grow taller than his threat.

There was no freedom in free.
Cobwebbed into secrets every bump,
every shadow, every creak
stirred my imagination the monster
would return to see if I still
had blue eyes and white skin.

 ©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017





Thursday, April 27, 2017

Do You Have Anything For Leaving?


Do you have anything for leaving?
I want heels, devil red,
sharp toes, and expensive.

You know the type.
Those that walk over excuses,
leave a mark, put an exclamation
point on goodbye.


Hell, I’ve been living a country song
without giving a shit about the music.
He kept singing the same tune
until I couldn’t take another sour note.

He had a love affair with the bottle,
the smell of cheap cologne, and
saying it wasn’t his fault.

That pair! Yes, those are the ones.
It doesn’t matter about the cost.
I’ve been living it, now he can pay.
Oh, and I don’t need the box.

 ©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Real Toads ~ Writing Shoes

(No, this isn't about me, but I know plenty of women who have needed these shoes.)



Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Tin Can Dry

Art by Karin Gustafson--all rights reserved

Bloom where you’re planted?
We are tin can, half priced
dried out skull plants.
Please don’t go on about
a glass’s water line.
I’m too thirsty for optimism.

I’m not sure about the current move.
She bookshelved us to spine up to
someone called Mary Oliver.
I hope she comes back soon
with that drink she promised us.

It is cooler in here. I am so over
that yellow marble and your
constant poem babble in my ear
about light nesting us in hope.

That bird keeps looking at us.
We don’t have any fruit,
there’s not a worm in the pot,
and I stopped blooming weeks ago.

Oh, wait…yes, yes…
The lady with the savior complex
is keeping her promise….WATER!
It feels divine…. My roots are twitching.

I think I just might get used
to the feel of this shelf we’re sitting on.
Stop looking so smug. You know it was
my whining that brought us here.
Really? Can I at least enjoy the water
a few minutes before you start in
with the glass thing again?!?

©Susie Clevenger 2017

I am so grateful Karin Gustafson provided her art as inspiration for our writing. You can see more of her art here.

#NaPoWriMo2017





Tuesday, April 25, 2017

I Gather Wildflowers Among Beasts

Vine Wood ~ Agnes Lawrence Pelton, 1913
Fair use, Link ~ Wikipedia

I gather wildflowers
among beasts,
those nameless,
wary watchers
who fear I will
steal spring.

They once
owned Eden,
the prayer path
of migration,
winter before
the melting.

I carry the scent
of humans,
the devastators
who claimed dominion
over all they never owned.

Mother Nature
had warned them
those who speak
with tongues
carried death
on their fingertips.

I’ve only come
to pick wildflowers,
and plant purple hyacinths
as penitence to show my sorrow
humans couldn’t discern
it was they who should
be named beast.

 ©Susie Clevenger 2017

 My late contribution for Earth Day
(Purple Hyacinths are the flower given when you wish to show remorse.) 

#NaPoWriMo2017




Monday, April 24, 2017

Immortality's Feather


Peacock, the shimmer
trapped in your feathers
will not surrender to death.
The glory in your plumes speaks
of eternal gold and breath
reborn in lungs plague blackened.

Your eye feathers hold immortal’s vision.
Life in blood, bone, and flesh sends hope
God will collect our dust to raise our bodies
from tombs hollowed by sorrow.

The majesty of your movement
erases doubt the earth you stride
can ever own the wind ruffling your wings.

Oh what is beauty if it is only defined
by a mirror that denies the glory of the soul?
Blessed peacock, you teach us grace
is the heart’s paintbrush and our reflection
is an inward light no earthly artist
can translate to canvas.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

I attempted a more historical period feel in this poem other than my usual contemporary voice.

Sunday, April 23, 2017

Bukowski's Bird Baiting


“Holy tongues preach lives
outside their consecration
are incredible fuck ups,
back wash, rainbow trash can liners,
pointless dreams.”
Come on Bukowski, I walked
right through your bird baiting
and never acknowledged the hypocrisy.

Those winged congregations
know how to sing harmony.
We loners sing solos at the top of our lungs
until the world throws us a finger to shut up.

Let’s have a beer, foam our upper lips with silence
until we get a little rose color on the horizon.
We might not reach harmony, but surely we
can find enough unity to create a melody.

Life is always gold before the tarnish.
Honey will eventually spoil if it is
tin spooned with Armageddon.
We can be the soft landing when
blackbirds no longer trust the nest.

  ©Susie Clevenger 2017

Poetic reference for today's poem


Saturday, April 22, 2017

Twilight

Painting by Mi Young Lee

Summer twilight dances
with shadow cloaked roses
to a sand song playing
on the southern breeze.

Void of sunlit frenzy
dreams wander
among blind windows
in search of hooded eyelids
to explore.

With a mother’s tenderness
night hours stroke
a purring clock
in the calm before alarm.

Silently inspiration collects images
to feed poetry when first light
rises hungry for words.


 ©Susie Clevenger 2017

My heartfelt thanks to Mi Young Lee who gave me this incredible art piece and inspired my poetry. Her joyful, kind spirit is such a blessing. Please learn more about her and her art on her website at Mi Young Lee.

Friday, April 21, 2017

Muted


Words throat deep,
truth rimmed, and
handcuffed to outrage
can’t enter my voice.

Ears, always ears
glued to the dark side
of hearing listen
for a chance to rebel tag
a soul brash enough
to speak the truth.

Patience dances with reason,
my spirit screams now,
bloodshot arguments spin forward
against the wall where free speech died.

speak up … SPeAk uP… SPEAK UP!
I’m weighing my words against
the length of the rope, dividing the cost
by the width of the bars.

I feel the day walking along my spine,
hell has a bribe, heaven a gate.
There are too many sisters who will never speak.

Life is not living if you’re seen and not heard.
My body is my body. My voice is my voice.
I’ll roar against the mantide who would rob me of choice.
Speech has a price, revolution a fight.
Tomorrow is too urgent to enter it mute.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Real Toads ~ "I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream

&

Dark Poetry For The Cruelest Month

Thursday, April 20, 2017

One Crow Wing From Discovery


I measured each bruise by six feet,
hell by each bone snap of my ribs.
Satin sheet midnight feeds the sky secrets,
and I am one crow wing from discovery.

I keep waiting for the sun, keep watching the trees.
Limbs are waiting for judges…I’m waiting for reprieve.

There’s no love in a fist, no heart in a blow.
Those crows have heard my sorrow.
Those crows have seen my pain.

He kept saying, “You get what you deserve.”
It didn’t matter how many red lights lined the driveway
or how much paper filled a file. Daddy’s money
sparkled green. Daddy’s money paid for lies.

Now I’m counting hours until crow light,
waiting for murder to fill the trees.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017



Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Dog-eared


My heart is dog-eared,
a book well read, but
always eager to write
a new chapter.

I remember when
it was brand new,
clean pages, fresh print.

It had been on the shelf
for an eternity of fifteen years,
(Youth can’t tell time)
when love pulled it from the library.

He was just a few pages in,
bookmarking all my tender passages,
when he didn’t like my interpretation.

First love, first rejection,
I didn’t approve his edit.
He wanted a Reader’s Digest
rewrite of my NO.
I preferred to keep all my pages
until someone would appreciate the read.


 ©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Sin Scrubbed


Her husband wanted her squeaky clean, sin scrubbed,
too many eyes and tongues were playing darts.

Cinched tight in the Bible belt she had just enough
freedom to walk a straight line, but not enough
to question the destination.
Five steps into narrow she learned a pretty lie
could polish the pulpit, but truth could empty the pews.

Born on the far side of his dad’s fire and brimstone he peddled fear
with the finesse of a master manipulator, and the quick jaw
of a used car salesman selling overpriced to an empty pocket.

Learning late is still learning…Her husband was definitely his father’s son.
Her confessions might dirty the holy water, but his would turn it to mud.
For the first time in four revivals she was eager to go to the altar.
If he wanted a sin scrubbing, she’d provide the soap.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Real Toads ~ The Tuesday Platform

Monday, April 17, 2017

Another Needle Into The Unknown


Another needle slips into the unknown
trying to gather enough answers to feed a question.
A mass grows, spirits sink and minds cling to the moment
fearing tomorrow will go askew.

We can’t cry and laugh at the same time.
We give tears their fifteen minutes, then outsource
despair to negative, and find smiles to keep us strong.

Life isn’t easy because you can smile. You smile because life isn’t easy.
We’ve worn out the soles of countless shoes walking marble tile
while spinning one liners around a clock.

We are a family of four living in a question mark.
We pray… We lace our shoes… We fight hell with humor
because laughter is the best offense when days
become monsters by another needle lusting for a knife.

   ©Susie Clevenger 2017

For those who might not know my oldest daughter, Dawn, has lots of autoimmune health issues as well as being a survivor of kidney cancer. Last Monday, April 10, she had another lung biopsy of a mass. We haven't gotten the official diagnosis of the biopsies, but it appears they are cells related to autoimmune activity.  
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Saturday, April 15, 2017

Defying Gravity Is A Mortal Wish


I want to walk yellow brick.
Defying gravity is a mortal wish,
but it’s an empty sky when
you can’t hear the birds sing.

Everyone has a bit of darkness
right below their rainbow speech.
There’s plenty of damning
on the cloud side of a smile.

I am wart, broom, and spell.
There’s never a line I won’t cross.
Miss Sweet knows who to call
when her tongue needs more spite.

It is hard being green when pink
is celebrated by blushes.
I want to stroll on yellow brick,
and live within a mortal’s wish to defy gravity.


©Susie Clevenger 2017

Friday, April 14, 2017

Nest For Invisible


I beg for a dollar, but your pocket  is cold.
The concrete carves a nest for invisible to hatch.

You don’t like the view from your window,
the trash is covering manicured grass.
I have skin and bone, a rusty heart, two degrees in math,
but I am lower than the pigeons shit-bombing your trees.

You roll me in assumptions, plastic bag me loser,
and fall into your smart phone shuffling selfies until
you have enough Photoshop to impress with a lie.

Never a question, never a word… I’m a paper bird
dressed in second hand waiting to be recycled.
It’s hard to learn how to fly in a sky made of concrete.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Real Toads ~ Invisible





Thursday, April 13, 2017

Thin Excuse

There’s a thin excuse in gullible,
but if you’re still buying the bridge
after the second lie, you’re
getting a buzz off the hustle.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Real Toads ~ Get Listed

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

A Bit Gray In My Escape
















It’s a bit gray in my escape.
I’ve hung bright colored curtains,
but these walls are wrong.

The paint was supposed
to have a touch of pearl,
you know “jewelry on drab,”
but it hits with something
more like incarceration.

I should paint the walls red,
make it feel like I’m inside a heart.
It would be a nice contrast
to the teeth marks I can leave with my tongue.

Oh well, butterflies can’t always choose
the right shade for their cocoons,
but they can pick the attitude for a new set of wings.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Real Toads ~ Out of Standard ~ Signs Of The Times

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Bullet Mad

"Heard the singers playing, how we cheered for more.
The crowd had rushed together, trying to keep warm.
Still the rain kept pouring, falling on my ears.
And I wonder, still I wonder who'll stop the rain."
Creedence Clearwater Revival ~ Who'll Stop the Rain


The world is bullet mad.
Anger twists tongues in to threats,
tomorrow smells like smoke.

How many bombs until
the earth is gone?
How much thirst until we’re dust?

Religion is collecting martyrs,
bartering evil for a god stamp.
Love is four letters of unknown.

Too many people are chasing endings,
betting on blood for new beginnings.

The world is bullet mad….
Tomorrow smells like decay.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Real Toads ~ The Tuesday Platform

Monday, April 10, 2017

Paper Stars In A Heavy Metal Sky


Paper stars in a heavy metal sky
hang from electric umbilical chords
threaded through neon comets.

In a universe of wood and brick
they collect penny wishes
until pockets are emptied.

As real as pretense they fall
into hands willingly raised to claim
starlight is formed from a light switch.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

 #NaPoWriMo2017
Word List: paper, stars, electric, wishes

Sunday, April 9, 2017

The Twitter of Poets

Sylvia Plath @sPlath Apr 9
I am well educated about death.
It arrived at my first breath
and steals heartbeats with the speed of a hare.
                     #life #death

Edgar Allan Poe @RealPoe Apr 9
Really? @sPlath I am the master of melancholy.
While you bemoan the loss of heart,
I am pecked morbid by a raven. #melancholy #ravenissues


Susie Clevenger @wingsobutterfly Apr 9
Please! @sPlath @RealPoe Life happens, bell jars break
and birds leave a mess. Drink a glass of wine
and stop living obituaries. #lifehappens  #obituaries


                     ©Susie Clevenger 2017
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                    Real Toads ~ Twitter Me A Gothic Poem

Saturday, April 8, 2017

The World In Three Acres


When I was a young girl
revelation came to a small house
on a gravel road where agony
mossed the north side of dysfunction.
Angry words never reached
the roots of why … They just
left the broken bleeding.


When bitter shrank the walls,
I ran to where the wild things go
and buried my tears among
cottonwood seeds.


 With bare feet searching echoes
I roamed creek beds, watermelon vines,
and honeysuckle fences until a mockingbird song
bid me to sit and rest beneath its nest.


Open souled rhema came to me
in a psalm delivered on the wind.

“You are a child of earth and wings.
This world of three acres is your freedom.
Among decay, apple trees, bird,
deer, and rabbit are lessons to learn,
stories to tell, ties too strong to be severed.
The butterfly spirit lives in your heart,
wherever you fly hope will never desert you.”


So many years have weighted clock hands.
In the gray of shorter days I still hear
the wheel crush on gravel where dirt road met destiny.

 ©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

The photos are from that small bit of land where I grew up. The gravel road is the photo I chose for the cover of my book, Dirt Road Dreams.




Friday, April 7, 2017

Misogyny

Portrait of a Woman, 1895 ~ Henri Rousseau 

She can carry her weight
when rush comes to crush.

She knows when to start.
She knows how to finish.

The harder the climb,
the fewer the dimes.

She isn’t Eve,
but he plays God.

Equal is an adjective
misogyny won’t allow.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

#NaPoWriMo2017

Thursday, April 6, 2017

The Ghost's In The Wall


Somewhere in the mist of tree climbs,
moon dreams, and starlight wishes
sits a broken doll waiting for glue.

Ring around tears… Fear has a name…
Alone brings monsters… You’re never the same.

Hide in your pillow… The ghost’s in the wall.
Drink from Alice’s bottle until you’re so small
you’ll fit in a keyhole no key can unlock.

He is… I am… There’s no where to run.

©Susie Clevenger 2017

My path to written expression came as a result of childhood sexual abuse.

#NaPoWriMo2017